Like many people, I tend to mentally divide my life into periods.
There are different classifications involving mental, social and physical
phases, with some overlap. One such classification, something that I never
really had a name for before, but for the purpose of this post I will call it my
view of the big picture. It has gone through a couple of different stages. What
I mean by my view of the big picture is a combination of my views on the
Universe in terms of the materialistic, rationalistic and spiritual. It also
includes how I think about what the rest of humanity, both historically and
currently, has to say about these things.
Definitions are important here, so for the purposes of this post, when
I use the term “spiritual,” I am referring to beliefs and feelings indicating
that there are forces in operation within the Universe that are beyond the
realm of the scientific method and that these forces exhibit a tangible and
noticeable effect upon our everyday lives and/or our fate after we are
deceased. I know that there are much more expansive definitions of this word. In
fact, I often use these more expansive definitions myself, but for clarity I
will stick to this limited definition here.
What I would call the first step in my path to my current view of the
big picture was reached more or less as follows: I grew up in a household that
espoused the Catholic religion. Furthermore, many of our friends were members
of various Christian denominations or were Jews, who espoused a belief in God
in various intensities. In addition, a significant percentage of adults around
me expressed a belief in other supernatural phenomena such as ghosts, premonitions
of the future, etc. Most of these adults
did not generally attempt to justify their belief systems through reasoned
discourse. Instead, they were generally uncomfortable by the act of
questioning. I was exposed to some dissenters, however. There were several adults
who questioned the existence of God as well as of supernatural phenomena.
Very early on, I began to gravitate towards the skeptics, and I
began to read books and watch television programs that advocated scientific and
analytical thinking. I began to question religion as a spiritual basis
underlying the Universe and eventually settled into what I would call strong
agnosticism trending towards atheism. As time went by, I moved closer to an
atheistic worldview. This is what I like to think about as my first major step
in formulating my view of the big picture.
Like many people I know, I settled into what I would call a
rationalistic and scientific thought system. This was not the cold and
mechanistic viewpoint that Western popular culture all too often painted as caricatures.
Instead, I was, and still am, bursting with awe at the wonders of the Universe
and strive to find my place in it. Furthermore, I always held to the firm
conviction that the things that make life worth living were human values such
as kindness, love, morality, dignity, etc. and that human beings needed to be
valued.
However, like many adherents of similar worldviews, I held, if not
with contempt, a lack of respect and a wariness for views of reality that
tended towards the spiritual and that relied heavily on faith. Occasionally, I
was even downright hostile. Unfortunately,
for myself and for others with similar mindsets, this led to a kind of “us
verses them” mentality. I, of course, identified with the rationalists. “Them”
were the folks who were more spiritually inclined.
My view of human history was common with non-believers. It was the story of rational people being
mercilessly persecuted by religious fanatics. I saw religion and spirituality constantly
at war with the truth and those who sought it.
Throughout history, skeptics were persecuted, murdered and tortured by
religious people. Religious texts were, at best, benign fairy tales and, at worst,
guideposts to a horrendous morality.
Then, there came the second big intellectual step for me. No, I
did not convert; nor did I surrender my firm beliefs. Instead, I realized that
the world was not such a simple place after all. The state of things is not so black
and white.
My moving into this next level did not displace my core beliefs, though
it did eliminate some of their sharp edges. I am still a rationalist, and I do
not believe that any kind of spirituality can describe any of the hard facts
underlying the Universe. Nor do I believe that a balance between science and spirituality
can tell us anything about the nature of reality. I do, however, despite my
disagreement with a good portion of the various worldviews, know that I can
learn a lot when interacting with people who have a more spiritual outlook than
myself. Of course, examining our history and culture in terms of religion and spirituality
is also a valuable endeavor.
For instance, though I find that some of the moral systems
espoused in some revered religious texts to be reprehensible, other moral teachings
have represented in vital ways posts and cornerstones of human ethics. Though
I find some of what is advocated in the Old Testament and in the Koran
abominable, to their credit, modern believers almost universally, consciously
or unconsciously, reject such immorality. Personally, I know folks whose faith
has helped spur them into very noble acts. While religion
has often repressed science and rationality, during the Dark Ages the Catholic Church
was instrumental in preserving knowledge and culture.
Friedrich Nietzsche, with some justification, grouped
Christianity and other religions in with liberal democracy as well as as with
the human tendencies for pity and the desire for equality. The famous
philosopher and some thinkers who came after him were contemptuous of these
beliefs and rejected them, labeling them as a “slave morality.” I find myself
siding with the adherents of religion on this one.
Human
history, culture and our systems of thought are rich and vast. Engaging in too
much overt hostility and being closed-minded about such a great part of this
aspect of the world and humanity is not the path to personal enrichment. I am
in no way advocating that anyone give up his or her personal beliefs,
convictions or morals. I am advocating that people learn and strive to interact
with the portions of the world and culture that we fundamentally disagree with.
The
above represents personal observations. Many of my readers have very different
beliefs and may thus conclude that I have reached the wrong conclusions. However,
I hope, at the very least, to impart the sense that the world is a complicated
place. Those who stand on opposite sides of the fence have a lot to learn from
one another. Generalized opinions of religious, agnostic or atheist folks, as well
as the histories and cultures that accompany such beliefs, are often too simplistic.
While our core beliefs are important to us, they need not stop us from
understanding the nuance and complexity inherent in the world. By looking at
other worldviews from time to time, we can all be exposed to a more
comprehensive view of the Universe in which we inhabit.
Dedicated to my sister Olivia, one of
the skeptical bright lights of my childhood.